Speaking of Bomdila

getting a bit nostalgic......

but here i go. I grew up in that town.....that town is the place i would want to be. its small but wonderful. i've never liked big cities or even towns with a population of more than 50,000!
I feel more closer to myself and the nature.

The place i miss the most would be my high-school(after my home of course). had a great time there with my friends. amazingly we(me and my friends) studied for 15 years together(a bunch of about 20 guys), so it was much fun than anyone could ever imagine.....we knew each other inside out. But now all of them have gone to south india for their higher studies...and i being the unfortunate one got stuck in New Delhi(the city i don;t like at all)

that is the town i call home. And I Miss my home

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Lack of Love

I am quite confused as to where my life is going. I don't know where I would be 5 years from now. But I want to change all that, as they say “only the dead fish swims with the river”, I don't wanna let everything happen to me, I wanna make things happen instead.

I want to change how people see me. I want to change how people feel about me. I want to change myself, maybe not for good but for the sake of not getting hurt and feeling the pain every single moment. I wanna change all that happened to me in the last couple of years.

I used to think how lucky I was, but I know now i'm in fact the unluckiest man alive. Un-lucky since there's no-one who loves me, no one to stand by my side when times would be grey. I thought I had everything in life but thats not the truth.

I'm all alone in this big world. Alone even though there are prolly few hundred people I know and who I care about. But it seems there's no one who cares about me. Theres not a single person in the world who can understand how I feel. I'm not just another face on this earth. I have an identity of my own. And I want people to accept me as I am. I am tired of being just a shoulder for other people, I want a shoulder too. I want someone who would cry with me someone I can share my secrets, feelings with..

Tears may not show up on my eyes but its my heart which cries tears of blood, there's not a single day I don't feel lonely, dejected. People just keep taking advantage of me, and I know they don't really care about me.

I hope there's someone out there who would understand me and like me for what I really am. Someone who would love me truly. I hope I meet that someone really soon because I can't take this loneliness no-more. I think I would be gone forever if things remain the same.

I try hard to love life, but I forget that its in the movies where people can forget about all the pains and move on with their life. In reality that don't happen.

I HOPE PEOPLE BEGIN TO LOVE ME.

About Me

MOOD: Sofisticat
I can be both calm and stable, and I feel free to explore my environment. I can be a little nostalgic and I love revisiting familiar places and memories. When it comes to art, I appreciate precision and hard work - real craftsmanship. I appreciate the history of a piece, the story that it holds - I’m a touch sentimental. As for music, for me it’s all about joining in; a bit of self expression. It happens on my mind, and helps me let off steam.
Simple pleasures make my day, there’s nothing like a cuppa tea.

FUN: Thriller
I like simple Pleasures, and take time to appreciate all corners of my life. This makes me content and balanced, someone people love to hangout with. For kicks, I like to immerse myself in another world. I’m thoughtful and imaginative - I like to look at life from a different perspective. When it comes to holidays, fun is top priority. I love to get out and see as much as I can: a chance to spend time with friends and family.
Punky, punchy style spells a bad attitude, it grosses me out - I favour a more natural look.

HABITS: New wave Puritan
I can never get enough attention or appreciation. A bit of a one track some might say. I like to think I’m a devil in the sack, no talk and plenty of action! On the whole i care about my health and make sure I’m putting the right stuff in. As for home, I have a very contemporary and see myself as a bit of trend setter.

LOVE: Touchy Feely
A strong friendship is the basis for any loving relationship. I like to be able to share my entire life with my friends, family and partner. Love for me is about human contact - the nitty gritty.

More About Me:-
I’m intellectually curious and appreciative of what I consider beautiful, no matter what others think. My imagination is vivid and makes me creative.

Being a Capricorn, I’m a perfectionist. Everything is planned to the last detail, and consequently I have been very successful in whatever i do. My pleasures are long-term ones, through seeing my plans come to fruition.

I’m extremely difficult to upset, since I rarely, if ever, react with negative emotions, and even when I’m upset the feeling quickly passes.

Some people say I’m too picky, but I don’t see anything wrong with waiting for Ms. Perfect. I know exactly who she is in my mind.

I’m very secretive about my life. Thats why i come across as a serious person. Only those close to me know about my sense of humour. I’m devoted to my career, which makes me seem distant regarding family responsibilities.

I place great importance on personal happiness. And as a friend, i am loyal and caring. Once i fall in love and commit, i’m very unlikely to jeopardize the union.

Personality Disorder
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Very High
Narcissistic: Very High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: High